A cool mellow chick who is in love with music and people with a great sense of humor XD
A high school graduate about to do great things in college.
Quite unquie but you'll learn to love it (:
I'm currently on my mobile phone because the computer is unavailable at the moment. So unfortunately this post will be a little short.
But I just need to share that yesterday was the NYC Gay Pride Parade and of coarse I had to go to show support to my community. I had a blast! There were so many people and A LOT of sexy ladies. However, it seemed like everyone was in a relationship -__- like there were hardly any cute single girls. But I still had a good time just looking. I even ran into my homie V from Queens who I hadn't seen in a while.
Ah it was great because I love that it gave people the opportunity to come together as a community and celebrate the fact that we're out and proud and capable of achieving greatness despite our orientation and the non-support of others. It truely made me feel proud and accepted to be among so many gay people (:
Please forgive this short post. I'll get back on it ASAP
I'm currently trying to relax a bit, maybe head out with my other half (the twin) and some friends later tonight. But let me fill you in on whats been going on with me.
June 25 I chilled out at the park around my neighborhood with my little brother and one of my oldest friends, Figgy. They had this block party thing going on where they were celebrating Hip-Hop, so of coarse I was having a blast just watching all of the old school people break dancing and vibing to the music. It was great! It was there that I first heard the news of the great Michael Jackson passing away, as we all shared a moment of silence in his memory. It was a sad time because we lost someone who made a MAJOR contribution to the music industry and definitely made history. However, it is always good to see the better side of things and depending on your beliefs he is off in a better place now. So my brother, Figgy, and I continued to enjoy the wonderful weather and admire the nature around us. We sat and chit chatted a bit about our pasts and shared stories about our adventures in elementary school. I was truely at peace because it's these simple moments that really touch my heart.
AH I LOVE NATURE !!
Oh and I brought my skateboard to the park, just to ride around and have a little fun, however I am not at all a good skateboarder, I can barely cruise right. So as I'm playing around this group of like pro boarders come into the area where we were and they're like doing all these tricks and flips. And they kept looking over at me and I just kind of stood there like a scared duck staring aimlessly at my board and the first thing that came to my mind was to hide it because if they saw it then they'll know I'm just a wanksta skateboarder lol So i hid it behind the benches and casually sat there as if I was deep in conversation with my little brother lol smh. It was kind of funny XD
So fast forward a bit. Today I had my WISE program. It's kind of this new program that one of my friend's sponsor launched to just mentor young women and help them transition into college. It's pretty cool. And today we had to prepare a one minute speech introducing ourselves. I must admit I'm not the best at public speaking and I was a bit nervous but overall I felt I did pretty well. (: I hope to practice as much as I can so that when I speak people can't help but listen and be in awe at my amazing skills lol
So I've been in a good mood this whole week. It's amazing, I love feeling like this because it just makes life worth living. Like the moments that can make you smile and feel so incredibly peaceful despite the million distractions or turmoil elsewhere as long as you have peace within it's all good (: Now please don't get me wrong, I'm not always happy and chipper and lately I've been surprisingly optimistic but I definitely have my moody and slightly bitchy side. LOL
ahh welp I've got to get going the shower awaites n_n
Hey there. I guess it's about that time for an update (: So at this particular moment I'm feeling quite content. My mood is so free and light I love it X] However, let me rewind a bit and fill you in on my day.
Today I had to handle some paperwork regarding school but then I met up with a friend of mine, who shall remain anonymous, and we decided to head over to the Bronx Zoo since its free on Wednesdays and as we traveled through this vast area filled with beautiful creatures of nature it started to rain -__- Now as much as I love nature I sure hate the rain! but for some reason i stayed. . . It was something about being with my friend that made it kinda cool to travel around in horrible weather lol. It made the experience much more real as if we were actually traveling through an exotic tropical rainforest. I guess my favorite animal of the day was the Asian Red Panda: Its just so darn cutee! i love it XD
Anyways after our adventures at the zoo, we decided to head back to my neighborhood and get a bite to eat. Then i took her to my roof. . [just as a side note I have NEVER taken anyone to my roof, its kind of a forbidden place] but it was something I didn't mind sharing with her. See my roof is the spot that I love to go to and just chill alone. When you stand there you can look out and see the entire city. It is absolutely beautiful. But for a moment we just stood there in awe at the majestic beauty we so easily take for granted and almost simultaneously I could feel that we connected on a level that brought our friendship even closer (:
I feel like this day was just filled with wonderful works of nature and I am so happy to have acknowledged it.
So around 8PM I watched So You Think You Can Dance, a show that I am TOTALLY hooked on!, and every single time I watch that show I feel so calm and relaxed. And I am proud to say that I truely have an obsession with dance! I mean I am just a fan of free expression and diversity. I feel that in a past life I must have been a hippie or some sort of artistic radical activist because I feel so much passion for the freedom of expression through means of profound art. And I must say I have the HUGEST crush on choreographer Mia Michaels XD. She is sooo amazinggg to me!
One of her pieces that truely blew me away last year was the contemporary piece she did with Joshua and Katee for Adele's Hometown Glory->
SIMPLY AMAZING wouldn't you agree?
Ahh anyways I'm feeling so good right now, and even through the rain I smile because I allowed myself to see past the storm and fully appreciate the beauty that lingers afterwards!
So, I'm kind of new to this (: But my gooooooddd friend started up a blog and I guess I just wanted to follow in her footsteps. (Yes I'm talking bout you dear husband CMHA XD)
Anyways, so i wanted to get an opportunity to just write down some of my thoughts and emotions.
Earlier today I happened to read some old e-mails and I came across some from my first girlfriend, and it kind of sent me through memory lane. I felt a rush of past emotions mixed with a bit of regret. See I kind of cheated on her, and I would constantly take "breaks" from the relationship to find myself hoping that I could just get it together and stop with my straying ways. But every time I got close to her again I just pulled away, and I guess I hurt her pretty badly. But at the time I was oblivious to it. X/ The truth is that I really loved her, according to my definition of teenage love. But all i know is that if after all these years I still think of her than she was someone who played a MAJOR part in my life.
Ahh, I just don't seem to understand why I'm so terrible with relationships. It's something that I genuinely struggle with. I don't mean to project my weakness on the web like this but I just need to express that I long for a meaningful and lasting relationship, but with my impulsive personality it is extremely difficult for me to maintain one. Not to mention the fact that I get bored quickly and i tend to stray when i get a little insecure. And it's much easier to not have to face my consequences.
It's frustrating when I'm smart enough to acknowledge my problems but ignorant to the solution. X/
I'm simply trying to look at it as a part of my growth. I have a quote on my wall that says "Live with the questions now, and gradually without knowing you will live your way to the answer." and I'm trying to view life in that positive way.
So i guess this is all for now, and I feel GREAT having expressed this. I want to thank my dear husband for introducing me to this blog business lol I think I'm about to become a regular on this (:
