This here is deadly

But speaking of live shows. Last night I hit up SOB's in downtown Manhattan and saw the beautiful and talented Laura Izibor play live.




I think she's such a wonderful performer and her music is incredible. I was literally like 5ft away from her and she was so graceful and comfortable up on stage. She seemed to have such a mellow attitude and didn't have that diva vibe. She just kind of kicked it with us and talked with us through out her whole set. If you haven't checked her out, you don't know what you're missing!






This is a vid of a performance she did at Joe's Pub in February. She's Playing If Tonight is My Last, one of my favorite tracks on the record. My homie D took some footage of last nights performance, so when I get it I'll put it up. (:

si c'est l'amour vous avez besoin de. . . . .

So I'm a Big fan of French Music and I've studied French for about 3 years. I think that France is absolutely beautiful! I was there last summer living it up XD. And I picked up a couple CD's while I was out there. I must say I am a big fan of Shy'm, Zaho, Diam, Vitaa etc. But I posted this video because I think that Shy'm is absolutely GORGEOUS. She's soo beautiful and her voice is amazing. My goal is to see her live one of these days. Or whenever I save enough cash to go back to France. (:

Sideways

You know it ain't easy
For these thoughts here to leave me
There's no words to describe it
In French or in English

'Cause diamonds, they fade
And flowers they bloom
And I'm telling you

These feelings won't go away
They've been knocking me sideways
They've been knocking me out lately
Whenever you come around me

These feelings won't go away
They've been knocking me sideways
I keep thinking in a moment that
Time will take them away

But these feelings won't go away
These feelings won't go away. . . . .



Ever felt this way??
It's amazing how the simplest things can ignite a memory, and have you tripping all over again. . .

give me that electric feel, high tempo

HEY!
I know it's been a while. But it's quite difficult to be consistant with my posts I'm sorry. X/

Anyways, so my summer is going pretty good so far. I think it's because I'm just going with the flow of things.
I find that if you set expectations in life, you'll surely be disappointed because life is so unpredictable.
To me summer is the season of being free, enjoying the warm weather, and trying not to get wrapped up in any frivolous drama
But it's amazing how summer is the season where there is the most drama.
It's the time when sweet love stories are created and only to end with a painful heartache. I think the warm weather makes people go a little crazy.

Believe me, I am the prime example of this. I'm quite the impulsive person and if it seems good at the moment I just go for it completely disregarding the consequences. But I'm 18 now and I'm really trying to get it together, and so far life is so amazing.
I'm trying not to get wrapped up in any nonsense and just live my life the best I can. But still have fun at the same time ;) lol
I have definitely learned from past summers, especially last summer when I allowed myself to open up more than I usually do, and ended up getting crushed. It took MONTHS to get over it. I swear new years hit and anytime her name was brought up I was still tripping.
But I vowed that NEVER AGAIN will I allow that to happen. I kind of blamed myself for ever expecting more from her. Which goes back to my initial statement that in life it's not good to have expectaions, because you're only setting yourself up for heartache.
I've learned not to rush things and just let them happen on their own.

Now please don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that every summer relationship is destined to fail, because there are definitely some exceptions. And to those who have that meaningful relationship, hold on to it and make it work. It might get a little rocky but if it's meant to be then it's meant to be (:













Wellll enough about this love business. I've actually been checking out this band that is popular in the UK but is slowly coming up in the states. They're called The Noisettes. I really like their sound, they're pretty sweet. I've definitely been rocking to them on my playlist this past month.

I'm also a hopeless romantic so I def want to check out this movie that comes out this friday called The Ugly Truth.
I also want to watch 500 Days of Summer, I Love You Beth Cooper, and Bandslam.
I'm hoping to watch all of these movies this summer.
By the way, am I the only one who thinks the announcer for the movies has an AMAZING voice XD. Ah its great

Anyways, I guess this is all for now.

Much love and Peace

you used to get it in your fishnets, now you only get it in your nightdress...

Hey Hey Blog World!
Sorry I have been M.I.A. for quite some time. I needed a moment to just redirect my thoughts, and also partially because I'm a bit lazy to write all the time. [o.o]

Anyways...
So I could fill you in on what's been happening in my life, but its been so long since I've updated I may have forgotten every detail. So lets just highlight the important things

First off July 4 was pretty cool. I spent it at my aunts house with some of my homies and family. My good friend D had to bounce a little early, and my mom got a little tipsy so they left together, but I stayed and kicked it with my homies Figgy, Chana, and my boy Steven.
From there we proceeded to ask Steven about how it feels to have a penis. [o.o] Because as girls we were always curious about the male anatomy (even though we were all pretty gay) LOL. But he was such a good sport with us, he answered all of our questions honestly and as open as possible. He's one of the coolest straight dudes I know and I'm happy he made the night so interesting and entertaining.

{uhhhh. . . . . . total memory block moment}

So I can't really remember anything that happened from then till now. I know I chilled a lot and like kicked it with the fam a bit. Ah maybe it's just late that's why I can't remember.

But the day before yesterday I went to kick it at my cousin's crib to play some rockband with my little cousins. I'm actually pretty sick on the drums, I can't say I'm an expert but I'm definitely progressing. But then my homie love came and we sat and made fun of retarded music videos and laughed our asses off all through the night. But because I was so preoccupied with my fun and laughter, I failed to notice the time. It was already 1 something in the morning and My curfew was at 12 O-o.... My mother basically FLIPPED on me and now I'm grounded =_=

SMH so in the meantime I've been napping and listening to music.

I'm kind of really hoping that my summer can get a little more interesting.
But Monday is my sugar love shnookums pie's birthday aka My dear husband CMHA. And she suggested we go to this karaoke place, which I'm reallly excited about XD. . . I hope to have a blast, plus I get to see her beautiful face so it's perfect LOL

But speaking of birthdays. Today. . . .well yesterday was my first girlfriend's birthday (you know the one I mentioned in my first post) but uhh yeaa, I had to hit her up and wish her a very happy birthday because it was only right and plus it gave me an excuse to talk to her. LOL (: but it was cool. It brings me joy to know that she's happy and enjoying where she is in life.

But I'm pretty mellow right now. I vowed to make this summer a pleasant one and one that I would enjoy and remember. And so far its pretty memorable lol (: [for reasons that are evident in my blog and for reasons that shall remain unsaid XD]

But this is all for now because it's pretty late and a lady needs her sleep (:
Remember life is meant to teach you, whether you know it or not, it's fragile but it can make you strong.

two birds sitting on a wire. . .

Today is July 2, exactly 18 years since I came into this crazy, amazing world accompanied by my twin Mr. Ray XD

I'm feeling a bit emotional at the moment. I'm not exactly sure why though. Like I am EXTREMELY happy I could cry. I have experienced so much and I am so proud of myself for making it this far, with the guidence of my mother of coarse. 18 is a big deal for me because it changes how people in society label me. I can legally vote, buy cigarettes, be in a porno, and be convicted as an adult. 0-0 lol

But most importantly I am so proud that I share my birthday with someone who is growing up to be quite a wonderful and talented man. My twin and I haven't always been that close and honestly we're quite the opposite, but he shares the closest connection with me. So much that I tattooed the cancer symbol on my wrist. Not only because astrologically I'm a cancer but because the symbol forms the position my brother and I were in when in my mother's stomach.
It means so much to me because he's kind of the ying to my yang. Even if I don't always show it I love my brother beyond words.





I also wish my dad was around to see how much we've grown. We have transformed into young adults and have transitioned through life with little of his guidence. Though I must admit I still hold some resentment in my heart for him may he R.I.P and know that I love him and miss him. And it pains me to admit I am seen as the epitome of my father. smh But dam He and my brother are the only men I love! And my birthday would be incomplete without acknowledging the foundation they have set for me.

But enough with that, I'm not trying to get all sad with my daddy talk.

I have to share that last night was AMAZINGG! My good friend Diamond and my dear husband CMHA took my bro and I out to the Nuyorican Poets Cafe. It was open mic night with hip-hop poetry and jazz. Oh man it was great! There is soooo much talent out there and I hope to go again soon and maybe show off some of my skills. (:
Gosh I love my friends! They know the way to my heart--> Great music, poetry, nature, pretty people, cake, and soup. And last night they got 5 out of the 6 things on the list. It was greattttt!!! XDD

These are the memories I will cherish forever. ahh I can't stop smiling.
I can see myself chillen when I'm 80 years old reminising on the time I heard some amazing poetry with some of the closest people in my life and ended the night by laying in the middle of the street afraid I would get ticketed by the cops, but doing it because it felt great!
I love it!

Well I guess this is all for today

Much love and peace