two birds sitting on a wire. . .

Today is July 2, exactly 18 years since I came into this crazy, amazing world accompanied by my twin Mr. Ray XD

I'm feeling a bit emotional at the moment. I'm not exactly sure why though. Like I am EXTREMELY happy I could cry. I have experienced so much and I am so proud of myself for making it this far, with the guidence of my mother of coarse. 18 is a big deal for me because it changes how people in society label me. I can legally vote, buy cigarettes, be in a porno, and be convicted as an adult. 0-0 lol

But most importantly I am so proud that I share my birthday with someone who is growing up to be quite a wonderful and talented man. My twin and I haven't always been that close and honestly we're quite the opposite, but he shares the closest connection with me. So much that I tattooed the cancer symbol on my wrist. Not only because astrologically I'm a cancer but because the symbol forms the position my brother and I were in when in my mother's stomach.
It means so much to me because he's kind of the ying to my yang. Even if I don't always show it I love my brother beyond words.





I also wish my dad was around to see how much we've grown. We have transformed into young adults and have transitioned through life with little of his guidence. Though I must admit I still hold some resentment in my heart for him may he R.I.P and know that I love him and miss him. And it pains me to admit I am seen as the epitome of my father. smh But dam He and my brother are the only men I love! And my birthday would be incomplete without acknowledging the foundation they have set for me.

But enough with that, I'm not trying to get all sad with my daddy talk.

I have to share that last night was AMAZINGG! My good friend Diamond and my dear husband CMHA took my bro and I out to the Nuyorican Poets Cafe. It was open mic night with hip-hop poetry and jazz. Oh man it was great! There is soooo much talent out there and I hope to go again soon and maybe show off some of my skills. (:
Gosh I love my friends! They know the way to my heart--> Great music, poetry, nature, pretty people, cake, and soup. And last night they got 5 out of the 6 things on the list. It was greattttt!!! XDD

These are the memories I will cherish forever. ahh I can't stop smiling.
I can see myself chillen when I'm 80 years old reminising on the time I heard some amazing poetry with some of the closest people in my life and ended the night by laying in the middle of the street afraid I would get ticketed by the cops, but doing it because it felt great!
I love it!

Well I guess this is all for today

Much love and peace