Our Swords

So I'm trying to squeeze in some blogging time here. While my brother blasts some rock music, Band of Horses- Our Swords to be exact, the song is pretty sweet so I felt it's only right to title this blog that.

Yesterday I wasn't feeling well at all. I went to the gym with my friend Sam, who I recently met in school, and we were exhausted! My whole body was aching, it still is actually. So when I got home my house was a mess, as always, so I called my mom to complain and she hung up on me >=| I HATE when people just hang up on me so I was livid! She doesn't know how to interact with people in a positive way and when I try and talk to her she just shuts me off and says that I'm trying to lecture her. -____- The never ending battle with that woman.

I was annoyed and tired, and I tried and just disregard it and keep on with my day, but she killed the day for me. So I went to sleep at like 8 and didn't wake up till 8 this morning. But now that I'm up I'm still feeling a bit blah -__-
I hate when I feel like this because I ruins everything for me. And it makes me feel weak and unmotivated, I guess it creates this somewhat temporary psychosomatic problem. I'm in a gray spell at the moment

My mind is definitely in a very negative place so everything I think about is just horrible. I'm trying to get it together but it's hard. And I know you're probably thinking like it's not that big a deal, so why am I tripping?!
But it's far deeper than that. It's suppressed emotions that need to come out and be released! It's not only my relationship with my mother thats bothering me. and I wish I could speak in more detail but it's a bit personal. And some things I just wish to not share with the public.



^^ I LOVE his emotions in this song. I guess that the intensity of his words is how I feel right now. Not necessarily what he's saying in his lyrics per say, but just his raw emotions. I want to just yell and blurt out everything thats on my mind.
But I think I'm just in a very weak point in time. So I'm going to cool it and do something to get me in the right track again.

Hopefully I'll be better next time I update.